whats it fucking all about OR stay on the sunny side of life??
Written by laurajanejoywarrior on May 24, 2008 – 6:17 pm -i have no fucking clue–hanging on by a thread here–i am divorced DIVORCED??! fuck?! i am SINGLE because the “D” word is like you have cooties–like deadly toxic and ugly fugly cooties–even among the people you THOUGHT (I thought–has anyone come up with a good word for the “universal you”–since the word “you” is easy …as is all of us humans taking shit personal like the word YOu–(sigh–long defensive thing when writing–my use of YOU offending others–sigh–and me fucking not giving up EVEN WITH ALL I KNOW HAVE LEARNED AND HEALED–not able to figure out how to never care what others think…or take things personal…damn goal…ha ha ha) i am moving next weekend–it is my first move in the 43 years of my life where my brother, my ex or there was one move with a bike team –seriously–i feel excited for AFTER the move–for the NESTING! the SETTLING! the–no yard? (with 2 dogs and 2 cats and after the last 2 yrs on 15 acres and the 9 years before that on my own private tennesse-idaho 120 acres and now to no acres–an allet entrance–and attached–ATTACHED–and 900 sq ft from 3000–Y’ALL I AM IN AFUCKING PANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no more doggie door–i have no idea wheteher i have laundry or not–i never supported even one of our pets let alone myself in 20 years–i haven’t rented in 18–i have only lived alone the past 8 months after a 43 year life with others—-i am FREAKING OUT–to say the very least–
and i am fucking LOUD and loving with in with attached walls–and i have barking dogs and fatass 17 pound cats–yes two stinky asses–help–panic–oh god–
and i need some sex–
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